Week 35, Day 241 August 2026

Here we go again with the end of another lovely 2026 month. 

Time, I say for me, did not fly by. This last week (werk as the keyboard prefers), coping with anxiety, the days went by very slow. A sloth could have won a race if there was a race. 

Living with anxiety: Part 2 will be next week starting over on Tuesday. This post is a filler of sorts.

I managed to do errands yesterday. It felt strange after being in a sofa tunnel for a few days, like out of the dark and into the light. 

There was an almost session that arose. I almost went to the place I want to visit. I almost did a walk-in for a hair cut. I almost went into the grocery store instead of the McD drive thru. I almost visited the Robert Frost Interpretive Trail. I almost went to Home Depot to look at vacuums. I almost ordered a chocolate shake. 

Have an Almost September Weekend

Browse flannel shirts online

Bake zucchini Parmesan

Review a tree identification chart

Buy comfy hiking socks

Sing to a teapot

Write a poem about maple trees

Have buttered warm brown bread

and a nice hot cup of tea

Part 1: Living with acute anxiety

There is a place I want to go to. I had a late start getting ready that caused me to miss the time I planned on. I’m not happy about that because I want to go there during the morning hours. 

So, despite the late start, I got ready anyway. And that is where I have been for going on three hours, sitting here waiting just in case the anxiety decreases enough for me to get out the door.

A new issue enters the scene. I am hungry. I haven’t eaten anything today. I had a half cup of coffee. When I am going to be out and about, I limit eating (except for maybe crackers). Today I planned to have a small meal where I was going. 

Eating stimulates the digestive system. With anxiety, if I have a hint of a cramp or uneasy digestion issue, an anxiety attack will pop up or start building in intensity until I turn around and go home. 

This is what I have to deal with when I want to go anywhere special, even as simple as sitting outdoors to paint. 

I’m also not happy I have on my favorite outfit. I’ll have to find something else to wear or do laundry. 😕

To be continued…tomorrow is today. I’m not going anywhere so I can rest and feel better about tomorrow. Another tomorrow turns into today. Feeling better. 

Not sure what changed

There was not a time, no matter what browser I logged into Gmail with, that adding photos to my blog was a problem. 

Due to cookie privacy settings, there were times when adding photos was blocked. I’m not sure how the change happened. It took a lot of reading to locate and find what setting is blocking photos on Blogspot. 

After a fix that allowed photos, the next time I logged into my blog on the same browser, adding photos was blocked again. 

 I believed something through or from Google blocks adding photos unless I use Chrome with the Google app installed. That isn’t the case because now after logging into Gmail, on Chrome, where yesterday adding photos was not a problem, I cannot add photos to this post. 

My iphone settings have not changed nor has any setting changed. 

I just now, between typing here, allowed cross tracking on Chrome.

None of it makes sense to me. It feels as if adding photos has to be from a specific place with settings I may not want. All this is when using an iPhone 17. 

An August Tuesday

As I go, no pattern sewn by hand
scissors, thread & needle

There are days to read and 

days to write, a post, a comment, an email. 

Life moves that way. 

Rain has been forecast.

I see the radar and wait for 

the raindrops to fall. 

Thus far, no rain has fallen

where I live in the last 24 hours. 

The flowers will need

to be watered.

Fading sunflowers
Fuumuui Kolinsky travel brush set
Winsor Newton Watercolors

Thank you Safari! Good News

Update: After signing in the next time, Google blocked adding photos here.

After I installed the Google App, adding photos is allowed.

Hours I have spent searching browsers, settings, google, everywhere instructions tell me to go.

Not all Privacy & Security settings are the same.

In each browser there are settings. There is suppose to be one for cookies. The only browser where I have found a clearly labeled cookie setting feature is in Safari. Once I shut off rejecting cookies, I can add photos to Blogspot.

In celebration: