Part 1: Living with acute anxiety

There is a place I want to go to. I had a late start getting ready that caused me to miss the time I planned on. I’m not happy about that because I want to go there during the morning hours. 

So, despite the late start, I got ready anyway. And that is where I have been for going on three hours, sitting here waiting just in case the anxiety decreases enough for me to get out the door.

A new issue enters the scene. I am hungry. I haven’t eaten anything today. I had a half cup of coffee. When I am going to be out and about, I limit eating (except for maybe crackers). Today I planned to have a small meal where I was going. 

Eating stimulates the digestive system. With anxiety, if I have a hint of a cramp or uneasy digestion issue, an anxiety attack will pop up or start building in intensity until I turn around and go home. 

This is what I have to deal with when I want to go anywhere special, even as simple as sitting outdoors to paint. 

I’m also not happy I have on my favorite outfit. I’ll have to find something else to wear or do laundry. 😕

To be continued…tomorrow is today. I’m not going anywhere so I can rest and feel better about tomorrow.

Not sure what changed

There was not a time, no matter what browser I logged into Gmail with, that adding photos to my blog was a problem. 

Due to cookie privacy settings, there were times when adding photos was blocked. I’m not sure how the change happened. It took a lot of reading to locate and find what setting is blocking photos on Blogspot. 

After a fix that allowed photos, the next time I logged into my blog on the same browser, adding photos was blocked again. 

 I believed something through or from Google blocks adding photos unless I use Chrome with the Google app installed. That isn’t the case because now after logging into Gmail, on Chrome, where yesterday adding photos was not a problem, I cannot add photos to this post. 

My iphone settings have not changed nor has any setting changed. 

I just now, between typing here, allowed cross tracking on Chrome.

None of it makes sense to me. It feels as if adding photos has to be from a specific place with settings I may not want. All this is when using an iPhone 17. 

An August Tuesday

As I go, no pattern sewn by hand
scissors, thread & needle

There are days to read and 

days to write, a post, a comment, an email. 

Life moves that way. 

Rain has been forecast.

I see the radar and wait for 

the raindrops to fall. 

Thus far, no rain has fallen

where I live in the last 24 hours. 

The flowers will need

to be watered.

Fading sunflowers
Fuumuui Kolinsky travel brush set
Winsor Newton Watercolors

Thank you Safari! Good News

Update: After signing in the next time, Google blocked adding photos here.

After I installed the Google App, adding photos is allowed.

Hours I have spent searching browsers, settings, google, everywhere instructions tell me to go.

Not all Privacy & Security settings are the same.

In each browser there are settings. There is suppose to be one for cookies. The only browser where I have found a clearly labeled cookie setting feature is in Safari. Once I shut off rejecting cookies, I can add photos to Blogspot.

In celebration:

Might as well get use to it & another Google Glitch

Week before last I felt a sliver of cool air while sitting on the porch that right away made me think, that’s autumn on the way.

I don’t want to feel that way. I like the warm weather so much that hot is good with me. I am beginning to think that moving south is a real option. Me, a die hard 4 season person, thinking of giving up bear sightings for watch out for snakes and alligators is a major shift. Who am I? 😱😳

Have you ever been typing a blog post, clicked on another tab, and forgot you were posting? When I read some other blogs, I get up and cook a meal before finishing what I was reading. Must be there’s a cyber universe thats wobbles into reality and back again. 

Lots going on here arrangement wise. I question why am I creating more messes when there’s already so many to choose from. The positive side is that along my way, I find more things to donate. Today I dropped off some clothes. 

Anyway, the apple crates I bought are perfect for a shelf unit to store art supplies. The hitch is that in order to fasten it to the board on wheels. I have to empty the bookshelf that’s on the board. Another mess create. 

I am getting use to fall not far away with as much enthusiasm as I have for getting use to moving things around every other week.

An additional note about my adding photos to my blog dilemma:

Using Firefox the first time, the Allow cookies notice appeared, and I was able to post a photo.

I logged out and back again. Google has shut that down like it did with another browser. The Allow cookies option doesn’t appear now. That is proof to me Google is the problem. 

Update: On Safari I found the cookie setting!

Left hand, note at wrist the curve,
my hand looks crooked. Right under wrist
line is where the break is on
the left side of arm
When swelling goes down?
it will look straight again.
Flakey skin happens when
splint is taken off. 
My fingernails are so long
they look fake. 🤣