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| Dry Cosmos on the Stem Watercolor study |
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| Cosmos Drying Digital photograph |
The composition will include cosmos that are in bloom as well as buds in a blurry background.
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| Acrylic in progress |
This summer has been one of abundant dull light for painting indoors.
Speaking of dull.
My wardrobe is Earthy colors, nothing real bright other than white. The other day I bought a pair of Cynthia Rowley long flowing viscose wide leg boho print pants. Think 1960-70s hippie era. Even the tie waist strings have wood beads at the ends.
The photograph is taken at the hem area.
Here's the thing. I have yet to try them on. They will fit, and be super comfortable. My issue is my attitude towards them. Although the do represent Me, I feel timid about wearing them for what they represent. Being a baby boomer, there's the hippie era episode in my history, high school, college. Actually, we were called freaks as in think comedian George Carlin.
But that was then. I left all that behind in 1971.
I am here in the now. I don't mind looking like an old lady. I even like elastic waist pants. It took years, but I wear them all the time now. I only have a beer every summer to pay homage to my flower child era skills. I still use language I used as a teenager, edited to fit the person I'm talking to.
What happened? Why the lack of embracing a part of my history that was as exciting as it was tragic? I remember the glow in my soul of being a writer, experiencing life to write about.
The answer that sticks out is the Attitude from judgmental folks labeling a person of any age, who wears certain clothes as getting high, ultra liberal with a stash of protest signs magically fitting into their pockets like Hermionie's bag in Harry Potter films. Seriously, you dress like that, many people will label you.
Point being, I all on my own, on purpose, as well meaning as it is, has fit myself into a style that is not Me.
So now I'm wondering what I'll look like when I decide to be Me.
I suspect there will be careful editing of my style because I've already searched online for temporary tattoos.
This will be fun.
