About That Flashlight

 Night and Day

An epiphany fell out of nowhere to tell me it might be a good time to think about who I am. Write down a few pages and/or do a two column page of good and bad of me. (Which column will be longer?)

A simple way to begin is to list my physical appearance, attitude, major concerns, strengths  and weaknesses.

Strength. Today I bought and installed a window air conditioner, an inexpensive model that has low frequency hum*. I discovered it also has a tapping noise inside that I thought was rain on the outside. 

I did not want to do the drive or deal with the installation at all. I had to remind myself that during heat waves last year, twice I was in the danger zone for heat exhaustion. I pushed myself to get the a/c done today. 

Weakness. Too much of my life is spent trying to not feel bad by managing intense dreads and depression. 

Anyway, changing the angle of how we think about ourselves feels like looking around a corner we didn't pay attention to before. The light is different. 

Whatever you think about yourself, be it a road in day or night,

have a good flashlight and extra batteries.

* Hum noise was fluctuating this morning. I unplugged a/c, plugged it back, pressed the reset button, and changed the setting to a medium cool. The humming noise isn't loud enough to be annoying. There's nice cool air in the room with a gentle rush of the fan.