So, despite the late start, I got ready anyway. And that is where I have been for going on three hours, sitting here waiting just in case the anxiety decreases enough for me to get out the door.
A new issue enters the scene. I am hungry. I haven’t eaten anything today. I had a half cup of coffee. When I am going to be out and about, I limit eating (except for maybe crackers). Today I planned to have a small meal where I was going.
Eating stimulates the digestive system. With anxiety, if I have a hint of a cramp or uneasy digestion issue, an anxiety attack will pop up or start building in intensity until I turn around and go home.
This is what I have to deal with when I want to go anywhere special, even as simple as sitting outdoors to paint.
I’m also not happy I have on my favorite outfit. I’ll have to find something else to wear or do laundry. 😕
To be continued tomorrow
