For a good day, appointment anxiety coping

Lazy day for me as I minimize appointment anxiety by doing much of nothing. I have tried other methods. This one of being good to myself works best. I think when my mind is taken off busy, the rest mode smooths over the stress. 

A yearly, important mammogram* is not a high anxiety test. An appointment of any kind is the anxiety source.I have no fear of hospitals, doctors and such. I suspect past negative experiences set off my anxiety alarm. I don’t need to analyze it. Managing ways around it are good enough. 

The ambient temperature is much lower today, forecast 75°F (23°C). Being outdoors will be comfortable enough to enjoy a nice ice tea and sketching later.

I’m also thinking taco salad for dinner will be nice as well. It is putting taco filling in a baking dish, mixing in crumbled taco shells and melting cheese over the top. 

Have a wonderful day

As it happens, I had to reschedule my test. Ambushed by a sudden intense anxiety attack, I had to say I can’t. I then went home. I wish I stayed to ride it out. It has been so long since I experienced one that intense, I automatically did what the doctor told me years ago, to remove myself from the location/situation. Anxiety is like that, there are attacks that you know when it is time to make the decision to take care of yourself no matter how embarrassing or disruptive to others. 

Cloudy sky inspiration

Where does the energy go? One day rearing to do things, and the next muscle aches making me question what did I do. I’m laughing. Whatever the cause, it is proof I did something. 

The residue and/or debris we leave behind, are the decorations of our past. Exploring the future is the chance to choose a theme, colors, flowers, glassware and such. 

Right now, if I could, I’d be (a slimmer me) in an infinity pool looking at the Rocky Mountains while wild horses splash in the waters of a cool creek crossing the property.

In real life, I sat in an old plastic chair on my porch watching storm clouds moving by from the northwest. Not even a cat strolled down the sidewalk. The appreciation for the dream and the reality is the smooth blend of hope and acceptance for what we have.

Where would you be if you could?

Unpausing early

 This is the first day since my week of stress that I feel some positive energy. An empath takes longer to recover from stress. Being good to yourself by accepting that, is a healthy move.

3:45 PM EDT 

northwest Vermont along Route 7, 

90°F 

( 32°C)

5:50 PM EDT

92°F

☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️

Boredom sent me back to Instagram.* The algorithm, I suspect, has a fondness for injustice outrage leaning videos because if I click a heart in support or click on one, they all show up like seagulls when somebody drops a french fry. 

Spring hit peak about a week ago. Trees here in this area of Vermont are full of green except trees that leaf-up later when temperatures are steadily warmer. Lilacs will soon be blooming. The pansies are loving the rain and cool weather.

I’ve been puttering, doing small projects and hand sewing summer pajama hems. If pj winter pants are old, I cut and hem them for summer use. Same goes for some jeans.

* I Deleted my fun Instagram account, again. My main account, (not used to scroll reels) I keep.

Day 135 of Week 20 May 2026

We next to a tree,

what evidence which grew wild,

woven into a system

busy being as should?

Neighborhood or forest,

the value of each,

as if we could _____

a tree allergic to cats,

we invaded by beetles.

The juxtaposition chosen,

shared molecules of DNA,

for egg and acorn.

M.Flannery

May 2026

What’s been going on catch-up and such

Written before the blog pause

On YouTube I’ve been discovering more craft based channels. I don’t think anything that can be cut, fastened, glued, twisted, or sewn hasn’t or isn’t being done. Amazing art. I’m developing a craving for decoupaging balloons with lace dollies. 

Last gas up at the cheaper gas station was $4.00/gallon for regular unleaded. It was a shock for a second there. At other gas pumps, I’ve seen $4.59/gallon. 😱

An increase of  arthritis discomfort in my knee is not a shock. I had a recent cortisone shot that helps, but I still can’t walk far. An exam for a possible knee replacement is scheduled. 

Spring is at peak here in Vermont. After all the rain, the green everywhere is just stunning. Warmer sunny weather is welcome. Alas, there was a recent frost warning.